I think people strongly underestimate depression.
I don’t think they understand how much it hurts. How much it hurts for me to be here, to be alive.
And how much it hurts that i can’t go. 

Have you ever woken up one day and thought “I’m tired of being a fuck up.” And then later that night, you fuck everything up so tremendously you doubt it will ever truly be fixed?

Yeah, that happens to me a lot.